vday is not my day.

Tomorrow is the annual "show-your-love" day. Its the day girls who are loved get flowers, chocolates and balloons. Where they will walk down Orchard Road with their beloved but yet spend more time looking at other girls and their flowers/chocolates/balloons.

I am not a cynic and neither am I one of those people who criticise Valentine's Day for its commercialism and hypocrisy. Indeed so, I am firmly in the category where I believe in indulging the one I love even if its just extravagance for a couple of hrs and poverty for the rest of the mth. Because, he is worth it.

Not that I think love on any other day is less significant. In fact, I believe its the small everyday gestures tt makes one fall in love and stay in love. Afterall, it is these small things tt come truely frm the heart and are all tt matters at the end of the day.

But because I am single and therefore lonely, I want to feel like a princess. Even if just for a day.



On my way home today, I found this on the ground. Someone along Flora Drive must hv had so many gifts she didn't realise she dropped one. Its nothing really... Just a horribly cut styrofoam heart painted bright florescent pink.

But someone must hv loved the recipient enough to even bother.

I know some will shake your head and go "there Joy goes again..." but I was saved frm Vday last yr bcoz I spent it on the plane towards China. This yr, I am home. Among lovebirds and I am really happy for them. I swear.

But I can't help feeling lousy myself. To not be able to whisper "I love you" or feel excited tt someone or anyone is looking forward to spending a day with me.

Its an open secret tt Joy wants to be in love very badly (not yet desperate but still dreaming, haha). You guys know it so much so I have gotten smses waaaaay before today reminding me how February 14 is just a day to commerate love between friends and family and not so much a member of the opposite sex. I appreciate the thoughts and all your "messages of love" but I know sympathy when I see it. So just leave me be.

I will be better on the 15th. Heh heh! :P



UPDATE: I got something left on my desk from Trixie dearest. She drew these herself and they are badges with a really lovely msg in the card behind. :)






Happy Valentine's Day!
I wish you chocolate covered rainbows
and cotton candy skies.
♥